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thanks for the replies. In fact, as I write this post, Ducky is on my shoulder going through a preening fest on me. He has become, in essence, part of my body. I honestly wish he would go back to the way he was. I was initially thinking that he did not understand the "whys" of why Tulip was gone that perhaps he thought he also would leave somehow -- that has been part of his prior life before coming to me as I am his fourth home. I don't know -- I may be projecting human feelings upon him.
As for Tulip dying, that is probably one of the more difficult things I have had to deal with -- she really was much loved by me and was part of my life for 14 1/2 years. Because of losing her, it's really hard to deal with Ducky's clinginess -- but to reassue him, I'm allowing him to be clingy and not trying to stop him.
He's seen me grieve before but there was no change in his environment so he reacted differently than he is now. He did not scream when he could not see me nor did he feel such a need to always be on me. He was more "loving" -- now he is (and I hate to say it) but rather annoying -- again, I'm not stopping him since I do not understand what he's going through.
I remember a few years ago when I had a few bunnies living in the back yard. I had to take one of the bunnies to the vet and she died during surgery. The bunnies saw me take her away and she never returned -- they actually (at least for a while) treated me differently -- so I don't know if this is what is happening with Ducky.
As a side and a bit off topic, Tulip was one incredible piggy. I am at peace knowing that God created animals and has a place for them though scripture does not say for the bible is about man's redemption, not critters for they do not need redemption. Tulip is gone from this earth but not gone forever -- she just went home. I just don't know what that entails.
I never knew birds and what wonderful critters they are until Ducky entered my life and he is so much loved by me that it's hard to explain. The same with Tulip -- I never knew that pigs could be like that -- she literally changed my life. If I had a choice, I would not change having Tulip in my life -- same with Ducky -- he can be annoying (so could Tulip) but I'll tell you, that bird has taken over my heart and I would not ever be without him unless he leaves this earth before I do.
I just wish he would go back to the way he was and give me some space. I really could use it right now but it seems he has other ideas and because I'm the human and he's the bird, he's going to win this one.
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