[Starr]

I'm Starr and I have been a member for quite some time although I have not been very active at all. I though I'd just give you all an update.

When I first became a member here I had just recently gotten a Severe Macaw "Baby" and a little brown head parrot that was missing some toes "Kiki". We'll after having Baby for about a year, Baby passed on. I've refrained from posting for so long because I felt so responsible for the death of my Baby. I disparately miss my little "Baby" and would do anything to have him back. I believe he may of had some type of kidney disease or something. He had come down sick a few months prior and after rushing him to the vet they had suspected he may have a kidney problem because of the amount of water he was drinking. After giving him fluids and antibiotics and keeping him in an incubator overnight they had suggested that we get some testing done if the problem arises again. The testing was $1800 and there was no guarantee they would be able to help him. I brought him home and stayed with him for days as he recovered. I was in the worst financial condition of my entire life at this time and our family had just spent a ton of $$ trying to save our cat whom ultimately couldn't saved. I barely had the funds to care for our family at the time I simply did not have $1800. He recovered quiet well and seemed to be perfectly fine. I had just moved and had pretty much forgotten about his prior incident. Anyways, a few months later soon after my move he came down sick again only I wasn't home this time to rush him to the vet. I feel so bad... I had seen him that morning as I was rushing out the door to go to work at a new job and didn't notice a thing. Next thing I know I'm getting call at work that my bird is dead. I was devastated and vowed to never get another bird again.

Well, now here I am...I couldn't stand it any longer and have since placed a baby Severe Macaw on hold with a local breeder. I should be bringing him/her home over the weekend if everything goes well. I'm so excited but at the same time I really miss my Baby. Although the new bird personality is quite different i can't help but think of my Baby every time I see him. I've named the new baby "Rio" but often times catch myself calling him "Baby".

By the way, the financial condition has greatly improved for those who may be wondering.

Sorry for the long post...I thought if anyone could understand it would be someone here.