[kali]

he didn't die, but i was so stupid.

i gave him away bcoz i thought i didn't have the time for him and i hated to know he was out there bored while i was at work or at my boyf house. i thought i was doing the right thing but i never realised how much i would miss him.

after i left him at the pet shop for them to re-home him i broke down and cried and have felt a hole in my heart ever since. i think about him all the time..

he used to say hello in the mornings when i uncovered the aviary and if the phone rang when he was living insde. he'd say goodnight when i covered his cage at night and used to do somersaults around his perch when he was angry. he'd tell you to shut up when you were being too noisy and stick his wings up and glare at my ex, saying 'cmon!'

he bit a girl i hated and drew a lot of blood, and would 'dance' for me in time to hard trance.. he was the best and loved me just as much as i loved him. he never threatened me with his beak until one day i clipped his nails back too far and drew blood. after that i always had a beak sitting close to my hands when the nail clippers were being used.

when i clipped his wings he'd sit his head on the ground and lift his wing up, totally docile...
i'll never forget the times i almost lost him... once his feathers had grown back a bit and coming in from the aviary he lifted up and went for a little fly.. when i say little i mean he flew completely out of sight. i roamed the streets for about an hour looking for him.. he came back but must've been worried about the dogs so he went into a neighbours yard and started screaming for me.. i was so glad and lucky to get him back that day.

another time he hurt himself on something inside his 'indoor' cage and there was blood pouring out of his foot. he'd ripped off a toenail.. he sat there balancing on one foot until i got home and rushed him to the vet. they loved him there. he was an angel with them.. yet with everyone else in my world he was a terror. i think he thought he was protecting me.

and yet i let him go.. i finally got up the courage to go back and see if he was still there, i thought maybe he would be pining for me and they couldn't sell him. i hoped that anyway.. he apparently went to a couple and he was a darling with both of them.

i hope he's happy where he is now and that he still remembers me. i miss him so much and it's so hard to let it show to everyone, they don't understand what he meant to me. if i had ony stuck it out another 4 months everything would have been fine, i've got all the time in the world for him now and an empty avairy i jut can't bring myself to get rid of. maybe deep down i'm hoping he'll come back?

it took me ages to get another bird and i was unfair to tipsy (GCC), he wasn't george and i was expecting him to be as funny and have such a personality. but tipsy didn't love me straightaway and as much as i tried maybe he knew he was there as a replacement?!!? i realised that i needed a bigger bird so i gave tipsy to a friend who loved playing with him (she really makes a fantastic mother to him too) and found my sun conure and fell in love with him straightaway.

i know now that no bird will be the same as george which is why i posted this thread.

you don't have to have a bird die for it to break your heart.