Reminiscing about Madison

[Cindy Q]

Madison was a 6 month old maltese that died on Easter night. It was a terrible accident that I don't want to go into. But I would like to celebrate her short life by sharing a little bit about her.

We met Madison November 10th and I knew immediately that she was the one. She was incredibly happy and lively. Her eyes twinkled constantly with an inner light. She had a look of constant mischieviousness in her little black eyes. The day we met her she ran over to us as if she'd always known us and played with us without reservations. It was an indication of the way she would always be. She never met a stranger and feared nothing.

At night she slept in the nook of my neck on my shoulder curled up in a little ball with her nose pressed to mine and on occasion I grew annoyed with her because at 2 am she was raring to go and would hop back and forth in bed trying to entice me to play. Eventually I would give in and play with her until her energy was spent and then we curled up in our usual position to sleep for the night. Sometimes i'd be awakened by her tiny tongue licking my nose and i'd open my eyes and there she'd be....ready to play or go out or just say hi.

In the day time she was constant motion. She had no idea of her bodies limitations and I was kept constantly on my toes to keep her out of danger. Because we share our house with 3 other dogs we have a very big dog food bowl in the kitchen which she would crawl into while she ate. It became her spot and the other dogs watched her with annoyance as she blocked their access to the bowl as she ate and periodically napped :icon_smil She was so active and happy that I had to hold her with 2 hands or else she would wriggle out and fall. If I looked into her face she would stare me in the eye and either bark, lick my nose or nip at it and then commence wriggling all over again.

I don't know what it was about Maddy but from the day I met her she felt like my heart mate. She was the only dog that I felt an instant connection to, immediately she belonged and was accepted and it was like she had always been here. She was accepted by all 3 dogs, even forged a friendship with 1 of my dogs that my other 2 can't stand. I took her everywhere with me and she eagerly greeted and played with all that approached her and believe me because she was so unbelieveably adorable at only 2 lbs there were many who came over to see her when we were out.

Since she's been gone I haven't been able to stop thinking about her and the fact that she's gone hurts my heart so badly that I just want to burst and tell the whole world about her. She truly was so special and I was so lucky to have had her for the short time that I did. I only wish I could've had her longer. I keep thinking about bringing home another. I feel like it might be the only way to heal for me, like I won't be able to stop thinking about her until I have something else to think about. I called her breeder and found out they still have her brother. Do you think its fate? I went to meet him and he is so different it emphasizes how truly special Maddy was. We've decided to bring him home but I can't stop making comparisons....

Anyways thanks for letting me pour a little of my heart out


In memory of Madison, the sweetest little dog there ever was.

Cindy Q

[Mela]

OH Cindy my heart aches for you. I know what you mean about those little black eyes. I rescued a tiny 3lb baby maltese on new years eve and I also have 2 other dogs. Funny how similar our lives seem. Maddison will always have her little paw prints on your heart. You will find comfort with her brother. Even though he is totally different than her I'm sure he will wiggle his way into another corner of your heart. Please accept my sympathy on your loss. Mela

[melster122]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss.

[Regina U.]

Cindy,

I am so sorry for your loss. Madison was and always will be very special, as you well know. She will never be replaced, but always leave room in your heart, to love another. Find comfort knowing that we care and share in your sorrow.

Regina (Bubba and Ziggy)..

[David S]

Cindy,
What a huge heart you have! I've buried family that wasn't a painful as the loss of one of my furry friends..... may your memories of Maddy bring a smile to you face and help heal your heart.

[danforth3]

Cindy our memories keep those we loved dearly who have passed with us. My condolences on your loss.

[BirdzRmylife]

I'm so sorry Cindy ,
Madison is in my prayers...

[Cindy Q]

Thanks everyone, it has been a rough week. My family mourned with me for several days but they seemed to have moved on but I just feel stuck. I wake up every morning with a pain in my chest and my stomach churning and while i'm not crying constantly anymore I just still don't feel right. I keep seeing flashes of her eyes (they were always my favorite) in my head. The new dog isn't home yet, we will bring him home this week and at first the thought of him made me sadder, but as the days go by and I get more used to the idea of him being here I get more excited. Initially all I could see about him were the differences and they made me disappointed but I'm beginning to think maybe its good he's so different. Everything Maddy was he is not they are truly opposites and when I met him my heart just sank I had been hoping that Maddy was an indication of how all maltese would be since she was my first experience with one but I found out quickly that I was wrong, she was a one of a kind. Our new guy is shy and reserved and appears to be a lap dog which isn't a bad thing necessarily just a big change. Maddy was boisterous and feisty and a little full of herself and a lot full of mischeif and she was only a lap dog after she wore herself out from running around like a mad man. She treated everyone like they were her new best friend but saved a special spot for me and followed me around constantly.

Anyways, I am trying to think of a new name for our guy that takes his personality into account and possibly has special meaning about the situation he is coming into if anyone has any ideas I welcome them. Our list so far is:

Roscoe (which doesn't actually suit him we just like it)
Benny
Bane (long awaited child in Hawaiian)
Cosmo
Yoshi (beautiful/lucky in Japanese)


Yoshi is in the lead right now, that and then Benny. Any ideas? Thanks all for being so supportive, I talk about Maddy so much here I believe i'm starting to grate on people's nerves. Needed to look for a new audience, I think once her brother comes home i'll begin to feel better.

Cindy Q

[greyburd]

Hey Cindy, I'm really sorry for your loss. I know how upsetting it can be!!

As for naming your pup, I'm liking Roscoe. It just has a fun feel to it!!!

[Vankarhi]

i am sorry to hear of your loss. The only advice I can offer is that time will heal. You will probably get teary eyed from time to time even as time goes on. I know I still do when I think or talk about my lost furry family, but the good times stick out more than ever and they make me smile. I have some very good memories of my special boy "sensei" (my male staffy who passed almost 4 years ago) and I can smile about them when i talk about him, but still get choked up and teary too.