I might as well throw in the towel

[mommaof3]

I am super stressed right now, I have finals due and the application I use for typing out my papers deleted itself from my computer. Along with a paper that was almost done (6 pages). My husband is at work and my kids are acting up, out of control acting up. They have lost trick or treating (and I know this is going to be a fight with the husband), my son has gotten progressively worse (thanks to his 13 yr old uncle who displays all the same behavior issues my son is now imitating). He even tried kicking me in the face when I put him on the couch for timeout. I am loosing the battle and my husband refuses to keep them from their uncle. I have never felt like such a failure in my life as I do right now. On top of trying to redo three final papers in a less than 24 hour period, my husbands whole family knows what is going on and how stressed out I am. And not a single person has offered to take the kids to help me get more done. I feel so broken and might as well just drop the classes the day before they end. Because unless something is done I am not going to be able to finish. My daughter is teething and wants to be held, I havent had but a few hours of sleep the past week and now my landlord is stomping around the freaking house. I am a woman on the verge. And my husband is mad at me because he has to change his plans tomorrow so that I can get my stuff done or at least try to. I give up. If we were back where I am from than I wouldn't be having this issue because at the first sign of distress my family would have come and scooped up the kids so at least I can do what I have to do. His family makes me so angry sometimes.

[Greycloud]

Aj, so sorry you are having such a difficult time. It is a shame that his family cannot be more helpful. Have you tried asking for babysitting help? You husband is being selfish when he doesn't see what you are going through. You are only trying to better yourself to benefit the entire family, him included. You need to sit him down and have a heart to heart. You have several years of school ahead of you. It is going to be very difficult and you are going to have to insist help from all sources. Take a deep breath and don't quit school! You have come to far. I wish you calmer times ahead.

[jdlilfan]

It's going to be OK. Take a deep breath and sit down for a few. Please don't quit school! Sit down and talk with Hubby and tell him things have GOT to change! You are certainly not a failure!

[sailorkelly]

I am sorry all this is happening. I know in my husbands side of the family I have to ask if I want something. Maybe you should just ask if they could help with the kids.
If time outs aren't working whoop his butt. I know parents don't do that anymore... but I am old fashion. lol.
Don't quit your classes. You can finish your papers, it will be tough but I know you can do it. Do you have the cd with your programs on it? If you don't you should go on line an download it.
Husbands can be butts but I am sure if you talk to him then you can come to a compromise. He has to help you out. He doesn't get to do whatever while you have to do school stuff and the kids. Tell him to take the kids trick or treating while you can do some work. Just don't let the kids have the candy till they behave.

[mommaof3]

Well, shortly after writing this post I went to my room and prayed that someone would show me how to have patience and help me figure out a solution. And don't you know after I was finished making the kids lunch my pastor, his wife, and some members of our church walked by and saw my in the window, stopped by and we all prayed together. I know it sounds crazy, and they had a reason for being in the area (they were passing out flyers since it is a new branch of the Vineyard and they are having a family seminar before church for a period of three weeks). But they saw me and thought they couldn't just walk by and not stop by. It is times like these that I LOVE being a Christian (although I really LOVE it ALL the time). After they left, I am not sure if my kids calmed down or it didn't bother me as much. But I felt more relaxed and less on edge. They also said a prayer for us about the landlord and my finals, and my computer (sounds crazy but it was more like "We hope that Aj is able to find a solution to her problem to continue on with her goal". And when my husband came home he did the exact same things I did and was able to recover everything for me. Then he got the kids ready and is taking them out to dinner and trick or treating (after he had a long talk with my oldest). He is bummed and frustrated about not being able to do what he wanted to tomorrow, but golf can wait. But I am off of here to correct my paper, and give it another once over and then start on my other one.

[Greycloud]

Prayers are wonderful things!

[pecks]

Yes, indeed, never underestimate the power of prayer. :) Gl to you and hang in there! You can do it...just keep holding on.

[mommaof3]

Well I am back to throwing in the towel, I was finishing up the work and spell checking after saving it first and the darn program crashed AGAIN and this time it did wipe everything out. No more open office, and now a third attempt at final papers, one of which is 6 pages long. Now I get to install Microsoft Office,Home and Student and redo it all. No sleep for the wicked! Guess I won't be going to church tomorrow. I was looking forward to it too. But I am beyond tired at this point (my daughter is teething so you can imagine how little sleep I have been getting). Gonna install the program and get started on my work all over again tomorrow morning. Looks like momma will be in bed all day doing school work.

[pecks]

Wait, did the program just crash or did your drive do a complete wipe? o.O If your drive is that unstable where it's deleting programs and saved work, you might need to consider a replacement drive. Also, save your work to at least two spots...hard drive and perhaps a flash drive if you have one. That way if things wipe again, you'll have a backup.

[LovelySydney]

Your computer crashed AGAIN? Goodness at that point I probably would have thrown the thing!! I hope you finish your paper and DONT QUIT SCHOOL!! You just need to take a breath and relax a little. I know how hard school can be, trust me - but you can do it!